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~I'm still fucking moody. There are a number of reasons which I am frankly too tired to list. However, Number One is obvious to me at least: my impending birthday.
I've gone on about that before and doubtless will go on about again. The thing has been a Milestone of Failure for a goodly portion of my adult life and something of that nature does not just go away, even when one knows exactly what it is and how it no longer truly applies.
What is eating at me the most at this moment is my lack of writing, which is probably a symptom of my Birthday Blues and therefore is a self perpetuating loop. Oy. That is then compounded by my having to put off printing up copies of The Abridged Version because that money got spent putting Jasper to sleep.
See how this can fire off all the 'failure triggers'?
So I've been sleeping more than usual and watching various movies and shows. Next Monday it will all be over for another year and Thursday is the 1st so I can go print my copies and distribute them. Hopefully that will perky me up a bit...
I've gone on about that before and doubtless will go on about again. The thing has been a Milestone of Failure for a goodly portion of my adult life and something of that nature does not just go away, even when one knows exactly what it is and how it no longer truly applies.
What is eating at me the most at this moment is my lack of writing, which is probably a symptom of my Birthday Blues and therefore is a self perpetuating loop. Oy. That is then compounded by my having to put off printing up copies of The Abridged Version because that money got spent putting Jasper to sleep.
See how this can fire off all the 'failure triggers'?
So I've been sleeping more than usual and watching various movies and shows. Next Monday it will all be over for another year and Thursday is the 1st so I can go print my copies and distribute them. Hopefully that will perky me up a bit...
