Today is 30th Decembria, 11AS...a Bredsday

"Bredsday is The Fifth Day. Bride is both an ancient Celtic Goddess and a Catholic Saint. She is a Triple Goddess and a Keeper of The Eternal Flame. Poetry is sacred to Her. Saint Brigid’s Day falls on Imbolc, also a 'fire festival'. She is chosen so that we may 'meditate upon The Light, upon The Flame'. She is also connected to Her Celtic Sister Goddess Epona, who comes the next day and Bride's Light can serve as Epona's guide."

"The Fifth Day is not a religious holiday per se, but rather meant to be a day of relaxation and reflection."

Addendum D [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]

Random

~Again, no joy on my MediCal – Monday like I figured - so I just broke my fucking heart and spent the cash. There is supposedly a reimbursement process which you can be certain I shall pursue. I might of blown it off if it was only twenty seven bucks, but we're up to like seventy eight now and I'm fucking pissed. I am however grateful that I actually had the extra fucking cash to spend.

Sister T was talking about how LA County is using non-student/non-job seeking/non-psyche GR recipients to work 'in system' and that that has probably let the system 'catch up', which also means 'screw up'. The gal at the pharmacy also said a number of people have recently complained about problems with their MediCal, so that seems a likely cause.

Anyway, I took a half dose right away and will take the other half at my usual time later on, then take the full dose the tomorrow night.

I did sleep well last night because I had already made the above decision re: my meds. That took a lot of pressure off of me. I also realized what the Lesson of this particular clusterfuck was; that I can one day get off psyche meds, which has been my goal all along.

I don't take a lot – 10mgs of Lexapro per dium – and they were always meant to be an interim measure whose purpose was to help me deal with my OCD/PTSD. I have done a lot of healing in the past eight years. [started on these meds in Oct '03] I could see that though I was 'stressed and fried', I never at any point 'lost my shit'. I operated from Solution the entire time.

Part of that is being seventeen years Sober. Part of that is having a safe and supportive environment. Part of that is Sober companionship. Part of that is taking nutritional supplements. And part of that is having a clear Purpose.

I'll require more elements to finally end my need for meds. Body work, lots of body work, including brutal shit like Rolfing, and better overall nutrition. That obviously spells More Money. But all that will arrive in due course.

And so it is...