4am after st.paddy's

[nebris]

3/18/13

four in the morning
my companion is sleeping
all the cats are sleeping
there is small machine noise
the fan in the window
the fans in the computer
the compressor in the fridge
i eat a roast beef sandwich
outside it is dead quiet
usually i enjoy this
moment
but tonight i feel
empty
i think i shall seek
sleep soon myself
even in stability
loss and disappointment
have steadily dogged me
for a month now
i no longer have
serious drugs
to fortify me
against this hollowness
i get to face it
naked
better that way
in the long run
i know
but...
....well no use for that
sleep has less blowback
and dreams were always
my first drug of choice