Random

~As I said on Twitter last night, one of my crazy fans bought us a AAA account, so we just need to call them and somebody will come out here and put the 'donut' on. That'll hold us for local runs until after the first, when I'll head down to Lancaster and get some retreads for the backend of the trucklette.

Meanwhile, I'm a bit hungover from yesterday. This shit gets me so fucking wound up. Le-Le tells me to chill because 'you cannot do anything about it until tomorrow', but I'm simply not wired that way. I am a Deep Seated Obsessive and I do not expect that to change anytime soon. The only thing that I have found to ever cure that is Money, because Money allows one to make plans and take action in a clear fashion.

...and there you have it.

Nebs Is Not Doing Well

~The payment to AAA has still not gone through. The ''fan's” bank is probably sitting on it for Security Reasons. And AAA Customer Service is closed for the evening.

The former was the first call I made with my new iPhone4. The headset didn't work because I didn't plug it in all the way...

..and for reasons I cannot place exactly, I began to weep after that, which lead to real sobbing. I'm really no sure what brought that on, but I suspect that thing inside of me, that in my old love poems I call The Ocean of Sadness. I've kept it dammed up for decades because I fear it will drown me...

...I'm feeling very broken right now, even though intellectually, I know things will be okay. As an old Program friend once told me, “Feelings are non-negotiable.”