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nebris~As one might imagine, I have given this particular matter much thought and I expect to give it quite a bit more in the immediate future.
To be brutally honest, I have thus far not had much success as a 'prophet' and 'guru'. Note that I do not concede failure. That's simply not how one plays this game. I could very well be dead and whatevered for centuries before I 'succeed'. It would be lovely to see the fruits of my labors with my own eyes before that event, but I know how all this works and I just have to accept that this is what is so for now.
At this point the only 'follower' I have who is actually 'under our roof' is Le-Le and it's really her roof. There are a handful of other Sisters out there, but none within shouting distance. The two live-in experiments with 'new members' were both fucking disasters.
The erstwhile 'Sister Two' started off well, but when she realized that she just could not let go of her old life and fully commit to this Path, instead of trusting my love and compassion, she 'stuffed it' and went into meltdown. I wound up having to do the emotional 'dirty work' of ending things and the whole affair badly strained my relationship with Le-Le.
But 'Sister Two' was merely emotionally weak, not malevolent and our door is still open to her if she is ever capable of stepping up, though I suspect not as I don't think this Path is one that she really wants. It's not an easy Path and I can understand her reluctance.
The Oathbreaker on the other hand is so hardwired to distrust, lie and exploit that she is a functional sociopath and I doubt she will ever be able to have an on-going relationship that she will not destroy. Women like her – and unfortunately there are many of them – will have to be kept on the outer circles of The Sisterhood in the future. Their damage is toxic.
But both were Lessons Learned. The failure with 'Sister Two' falls largely upon my shoulders. There were relationship issues here that I had not dealt with and Goddess kicked my ass good and hard. The Oathbreaker was more of a 'community' failure, as she fooled both Le-Le and myself.
Therefore, at this point we're back to the 'mom and pop' paradigm and working on having to reboot Stage One. That is somewhat frustrating and disheartening. I had hoped we'd have a Second and Third Sister by now and be well on our way to Stage Two.
Note: Stage One was originally to be this house, e.g. a preliminary home for The Temple. Stage Two is to be a piece of land with multiple structures, residential, educational, etc. owned by The Temple as an non-profit corporation.
Anyway, the deal is that as of this moment, shit is sorta fucked. Not totally and solutions are in the pipeline, but The Temple, The Sisterhood, The New Matriarchy are still pretty much Pie In The Sky. And, for now, that is mostly upon moi, the so-called Prophet and Guru. [Oh, did I mention that Economic, Social and Political Collapse is upon us Right Now?]
So then, what to do?
The first item here is that I have not yet finished my fucking Holy Book. That's not always a deal breaker. Many spiritual movements have run with 'unfinished or incomplete Holy Texts'. Gives their practitioners lots of latitude. Of course, the 'prophet' who didn't finish or had his/her work lost must be dead at that point. So...no, at least not voluntarily. For all its issues, I like my corporeality, thank you very much.
And I can only do what I can do. The Explanation is where it is right now and all I can do is my best. If that's not good enough, well then, fuck me...
...which does lead us to the second and greater item: The Path that has been Revealed to me and that I share with you, my Sisters, is a fucking bitch and half to follow. It requires you to surrender not only your old life and identity but also most of what you have been told makes up Social Reality itself. Essentially, who you are now has to functionally die and do so without any assurance or knowledge of who you shall then become.
That I make no bones about that, do not sugarcoat it in anyway, makes this Work very hard for me. In order to be part of This Thing of Ours, my Sisters, you really really have to Believe.
One can see that most 'successful' Gurus etc. tell people just what they want to hear. “You'll be happier.” “Your relationships will improve.” “You'll receive The Abundance of The Universe.” Yadda Yadda Yadda
Well, I'll tell you something: If your 'spiritual leader' is always telling you things that make you feel Warm and Fuzzy and Safe, that Love and a Positive Attitude is 'all you need', they're fucking lying to you! Becoming truly Awake is grueling and brutal work and most who honestly pursue it are usually facing a harsh choice between Waking Up and actual death.
The Fake Fakirs are everywhere. This movie, Kumare, is a beautiful example. Note that all his followers are White Middle Class folks. They want a Quick Fix [“Love/Positive Thinking Is All You Need”] without having to surrender their lifestyle.
Then there's The Secret, the ultimate 'prosperity racket', and this new hustle, Anastasia of The Ringing Cedars. The latter is a 'back to nature' racket that is also mostly followed by White Middle Class folks who look more at 'external lifestyle' than Internal States. Of course that is because these are really about making money for their creators and that is what actually resonates to White Middle Class folks and those who wish to be like them, the underlying message of Privilege.
Maybe that's what I have to do; market this Path as a way to creating a new Privilege, saying that if you, my Sisters, if you follow it now and do so assiduously, you and your Daughters [nieces, etc] will become the Ruling Elite of this Sisterhood, this New Matriarchy, this Global Amazon Republic. Funny thing is, that's actually true, you know, 'getting in on the ground floor' and all that.
I say in the Preface that “Humans seem to need a bit of razzle dazzle with their enlightenment.” I have been Tasked to this Work and I suppose I need to blow some more smoke up your collective asses, to hustle and bullshit you gals onto this Path and into Awareness in spite of yourselves. *sigh* Okay, I can do that.
....and so it fucking is!
...somewhere E chuckles...
To be brutally honest, I have thus far not had much success as a 'prophet' and 'guru'. Note that I do not concede failure. That's simply not how one plays this game. I could very well be dead and whatevered for centuries before I 'succeed'. It would be lovely to see the fruits of my labors with my own eyes before that event, but I know how all this works and I just have to accept that this is what is so for now.
At this point the only 'follower' I have who is actually 'under our roof' is Le-Le and it's really her roof. There are a handful of other Sisters out there, but none within shouting distance. The two live-in experiments with 'new members' were both fucking disasters.
The erstwhile 'Sister Two' started off well, but when she realized that she just could not let go of her old life and fully commit to this Path, instead of trusting my love and compassion, she 'stuffed it' and went into meltdown. I wound up having to do the emotional 'dirty work' of ending things and the whole affair badly strained my relationship with Le-Le.
But 'Sister Two' was merely emotionally weak, not malevolent and our door is still open to her if she is ever capable of stepping up, though I suspect not as I don't think this Path is one that she really wants. It's not an easy Path and I can understand her reluctance.
The Oathbreaker on the other hand is so hardwired to distrust, lie and exploit that she is a functional sociopath and I doubt she will ever be able to have an on-going relationship that she will not destroy. Women like her – and unfortunately there are many of them – will have to be kept on the outer circles of The Sisterhood in the future. Their damage is toxic.
But both were Lessons Learned. The failure with 'Sister Two' falls largely upon my shoulders. There were relationship issues here that I had not dealt with and Goddess kicked my ass good and hard. The Oathbreaker was more of a 'community' failure, as she fooled both Le-Le and myself.
Therefore, at this point we're back to the 'mom and pop' paradigm and working on having to reboot Stage One. That is somewhat frustrating and disheartening. I had hoped we'd have a Second and Third Sister by now and be well on our way to Stage Two.
Note: Stage One was originally to be this house, e.g. a preliminary home for The Temple. Stage Two is to be a piece of land with multiple structures, residential, educational, etc. owned by The Temple as an non-profit corporation.
Anyway, the deal is that as of this moment, shit is sorta fucked. Not totally and solutions are in the pipeline, but The Temple, The Sisterhood, The New Matriarchy are still pretty much Pie In The Sky. And, for now, that is mostly upon moi, the so-called Prophet and Guru. [Oh, did I mention that Economic, Social and Political Collapse is upon us Right Now?]
So then, what to do?
The first item here is that I have not yet finished my fucking Holy Book. That's not always a deal breaker. Many spiritual movements have run with 'unfinished or incomplete Holy Texts'. Gives their practitioners lots of latitude. Of course, the 'prophet' who didn't finish or had his/her work lost must be dead at that point. So...no, at least not voluntarily. For all its issues, I like my corporeality, thank you very much.
And I can only do what I can do. The Explanation is where it is right now and all I can do is my best. If that's not good enough, well then, fuck me...
...which does lead us to the second and greater item: The Path that has been Revealed to me and that I share with you, my Sisters, is a fucking bitch and half to follow. It requires you to surrender not only your old life and identity but also most of what you have been told makes up Social Reality itself. Essentially, who you are now has to functionally die and do so without any assurance or knowledge of who you shall then become.
That I make no bones about that, do not sugarcoat it in anyway, makes this Work very hard for me. In order to be part of This Thing of Ours, my Sisters, you really really have to Believe.
One can see that most 'successful' Gurus etc. tell people just what they want to hear. “You'll be happier.” “Your relationships will improve.” “You'll receive The Abundance of The Universe.” Yadda Yadda Yadda
Well, I'll tell you something: If your 'spiritual leader' is always telling you things that make you feel Warm and Fuzzy and Safe, that Love and a Positive Attitude is 'all you need', they're fucking lying to you! Becoming truly Awake is grueling and brutal work and most who honestly pursue it are usually facing a harsh choice between Waking Up and actual death.
The Fake Fakirs are everywhere. This movie, Kumare, is a beautiful example. Note that all his followers are White Middle Class folks. They want a Quick Fix [“Love/Positive Thinking Is All You Need”] without having to surrender their lifestyle.
Then there's The Secret, the ultimate 'prosperity racket', and this new hustle, Anastasia of The Ringing Cedars. The latter is a 'back to nature' racket that is also mostly followed by White Middle Class folks who look more at 'external lifestyle' than Internal States. Of course that is because these are really about making money for their creators and that is what actually resonates to White Middle Class folks and those who wish to be like them, the underlying message of Privilege.
Maybe that's what I have to do; market this Path as a way to creating a new Privilege, saying that if you, my Sisters, if you follow it now and do so assiduously, you and your Daughters [nieces, etc] will become the Ruling Elite of this Sisterhood, this New Matriarchy, this Global Amazon Republic. Funny thing is, that's actually true, you know, 'getting in on the ground floor' and all that.
I say in the Preface that “Humans seem to need a bit of razzle dazzle with their enlightenment.” I have been Tasked to this Work and I suppose I need to blow some more smoke up your collective asses, to hustle and bullshit you gals onto this Path and into Awareness in spite of yourselves. *sigh* Okay, I can do that.
....and so it fucking is!
...somewhere E chuckles...
