Random [redux]
Jun. 18th, 2012 05:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
~Objectively, I'm okay. We have enough cash to do the rent and move thing. We have some good prospects on rentals. [Thanks, T] And we have solid help in doing the move itself.
Subjectively, I'm scared. We do not yet actually have a place to move to and that uncertainty is gnawing at my guts. Prolly my Kids being scared more than me.
I sat here crying for a while with Athena on my lap. That helped a bit. And it left me pretty raw. The fear came in with that rawness. The anger had been holding it at bay. Guess I just have to sit with it for now.
I need to sleep, but I'm afraid to lay down....
Subjectively, I'm scared. We do not yet actually have a place to move to and that uncertainty is gnawing at my guts. Prolly my Kids being scared more than me.
I sat here crying for a while with Athena on my lap. That helped a bit. And it left me pretty raw. The fear came in with that rawness. The anger had been holding it at bay. Guess I just have to sit with it for now.
I need to sleep, but I'm afraid to lay down....