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Jul. 7th, 2015 08:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nebrisI've been dreaming about old girlfriends and lovers. Early this morning I dreamed about Stephanie D, the daughter of one of Sunlight's salesmen. She worked at the studio as a receptionist for a while. She was a repressed little Jewish girl who seemed determined to become 'sexual liberated', though she also seemed uncertain of how to do such beyond simply spreading her legs for any guy she liked.
Our sex was not great as she kinda just lay these. And I was still a young asshole who knew fuck all about how to be with women. Her parents didn't help. They regarded her efforts as a mental illness and her as 'simple'. It was the late 60's after all, far more a 'dark age' than they seem in 'legend'.
In my dream I did my best to be good to her and allow her to open up, enjoy pleasure and 'own' her body and her sexuality. I probably owe her an Amends, though I doubt I could find her.
I had not thought of her in at least forty years. I did wonder if she had died and her Spirit was visiting me. She would be in her late fifties by now, which is around the age her father's second heart attack killed him.
Our sex was not great as she kinda just lay these. And I was still a young asshole who knew fuck all about how to be with women. Her parents didn't help. They regarded her efforts as a mental illness and her as 'simple'. It was the late 60's after all, far more a 'dark age' than they seem in 'legend'.
In my dream I did my best to be good to her and allow her to open up, enjoy pleasure and 'own' her body and her sexuality. I probably owe her an Amends, though I doubt I could find her.
I had not thought of her in at least forty years. I did wonder if she had died and her Spirit was visiting me. She would be in her late fifties by now, which is around the age her father's second heart attack killed him.