I Hate Writing...
Oct. 5th, 2011 07:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nebris..but I love having written.
My writing process has always be problematic. I start off excited and full of enthusiasm, then I get moody and morose, grind to a halt and have to fight my way to the end, with gritted teeth, through sheer will power. Once whatever project it is is done, I collapse into depression for a week or a month or more, depending in direct ratio upon how long the thing actually took to finish. [I use 'actually' far too often btw]
After some time passes, I 'get over it' and start on the editing and rewriting. That tends to be far less painful as it reminds me of what got me excited in the first place, but without the prospect of having to write the whole fucking thing still looming in front of me.
And, unlike so many artists, I do generally like my own work. Some of my old poetry does embarrasses me somewhat, but overall I'm quite happy with my long form fiction pieces. Maybe that's narcissism, but I'll take that over endless artistic self-loathing any day, thank you very much.
...and I wrote all that to avoid dealing with this. A sign of the True Professional; writing to avoid writing.
My writing process has always be problematic. I start off excited and full of enthusiasm, then I get moody and morose, grind to a halt and have to fight my way to the end, with gritted teeth, through sheer will power. Once whatever project it is is done, I collapse into depression for a week or a month or more, depending in direct ratio upon how long the thing actually took to finish. [I use 'actually' far too often btw]
After some time passes, I 'get over it' and start on the editing and rewriting. That tends to be far less painful as it reminds me of what got me excited in the first place, but without the prospect of having to write the whole fucking thing still looming in front of me.
And, unlike so many artists, I do generally like my own work. Some of my old poetry does embarrasses me somewhat, but overall I'm quite happy with my long form fiction pieces. Maybe that's narcissism, but I'll take that over endless artistic self-loathing any day, thank you very much.
...and I wrote all that to avoid dealing with this. A sign of the True Professional; writing to avoid writing.
