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Nebs Sez [Sex and Drugs Edition]
Oct. 22nd, 2013 11:34 am~I'm at that age where Ejaculation is merely another body function. Once every week or so does me just fine. Sex on the other hand is an endless source of fascination. It is The Core Human Drive.
You'll find all manner of Porn and Naked Women on my Tumblr, but that's not fapping material. Shit, I can barely remember the last time I fapped to a still pic.
No, I gather it as an Aesthetic and Intellectual exercise. I am constantly amazed by both its variety and its ubiquity. I'm deeply impressed by the vast number of young women, tattooed women, BBW's, MILF's, GILF's, Dommes, subs and MTF Trans Gals out there who participate in its creation. They are the agents of a profound cultural change.
~After two decades of living in a Clear and Focused manner, I no longer like being stoned. I used to live for that state of being, to be Fuzzy and Defuse. That is how I dealt with my emotional issues. And it worked...until it didn't. Then I got Sober. I've always been pretty bloody minded about this stuff. I worked on my issues even when I was using.
Now, because I've been in Serious Fucking Pain – some days I can barely stand up – I've had to take combinations of drugs that put me in that 'stoned state' and I'm not happy with that. But I'm far less happy with the pain. And of course both get in the way of Clear Thinking.
I'm not one of these Suffer Or Die Sober Types. My Sobriety is deeply ingrained and I 'wear it like a loose fitting garment'. Some would call this a 'slip'. Well, that's your Sobriety, not mine.
Being Sober is always and ever about The Thinking, not The Using. My thinking is still mostly Sober and I'm quite aware of the parts that ain't. It is my body that needs the drugs, not my mind. When – Goddess willing – this pain had been ameliorated, I'll still be Clear and Focused and the various drugs will go back to their storage space.
All that blather is not for me BTW. We share our Experience, Strength and Hope with the wider world because that is what we're supposed to do, the old 'give it away to keep it' drill. Because we Drunks and Dope Fiends have usually lived rough and fucked up lives, physical pain in going to be an Old Age Companion for most of us. Let the above be a guide.
~Now that we've had Sex and Drugs I suppose we should have some Rock and Roll:
You'll find all manner of Porn and Naked Women on my Tumblr, but that's not fapping material. Shit, I can barely remember the last time I fapped to a still pic.
No, I gather it as an Aesthetic and Intellectual exercise. I am constantly amazed by both its variety and its ubiquity. I'm deeply impressed by the vast number of young women, tattooed women, BBW's, MILF's, GILF's, Dommes, subs and MTF Trans Gals out there who participate in its creation. They are the agents of a profound cultural change.
~After two decades of living in a Clear and Focused manner, I no longer like being stoned. I used to live for that state of being, to be Fuzzy and Defuse. That is how I dealt with my emotional issues. And it worked...until it didn't. Then I got Sober. I've always been pretty bloody minded about this stuff. I worked on my issues even when I was using.
Now, because I've been in Serious Fucking Pain – some days I can barely stand up – I've had to take combinations of drugs that put me in that 'stoned state' and I'm not happy with that. But I'm far less happy with the pain. And of course both get in the way of Clear Thinking.
I'm not one of these Suffer Or Die Sober Types. My Sobriety is deeply ingrained and I 'wear it like a loose fitting garment'. Some would call this a 'slip'. Well, that's your Sobriety, not mine.
Being Sober is always and ever about The Thinking, not The Using. My thinking is still mostly Sober and I'm quite aware of the parts that ain't. It is my body that needs the drugs, not my mind. When – Goddess willing – this pain had been ameliorated, I'll still be Clear and Focused and the various drugs will go back to their storage space.
All that blather is not for me BTW. We share our Experience, Strength and Hope with the wider world because that is what we're supposed to do, the old 'give it away to keep it' drill. Because we Drunks and Dope Fiends have usually lived rough and fucked up lives, physical pain in going to be an Old Age Companion for most of us. Let the above be a guide.
~Now that we've had Sex and Drugs I suppose we should have some Rock and Roll:
