Today is 7th Sestia, 12AS...a Oshunday

"Oshunday is The Second Day. Oshun is a Yaruban Goddess of Love and Sweet Waters, worshiped as a River Goddess in Nigeria and as a Orisha in Brazilian Candomblé. She is chosen chosen because She gets the week to 'flow with Her Love and Beauty'."

Addendum D [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]

Random

~As my last post shows, I can be all 'adult' and 'competent' about handling these issues. But there is a price to be paid. There are significant parts of me that are not adult and these things terrorize and wound them. Those parts were born out of times when I had not yet become an actual adult, times when I was terrorized and wounded and was helpless and they bear the marks of that birth, carry that pain in their core.

Once all the 'adult business' has been attended to and I sit with myself in the quiet, then their fear and sadness comes to the surface. All I can do is let it flow outward and feel it. I do my best to comfort those parts of me, but there is only so much that I can do. My Damage is deep and profound....

Random

~I am emotionally much improved today. Part of the meltdown was sheer exhaustion. I am however a physical wreck. Tired and achy and my glands are tender, though not 'swollen' per se. Drugs and sleep are on the menu for today, while the lawyers do their thing 'out there'.

However this works out, it should be noted that I do have a long memory and, as Mumsie once said, I'm “a vindictive little cunt.” Well, I did grow up in the Entertainment Industry. *smirk*

Life in The Desert

~It is presently 90° and 15% humidity...and it's not even 11am yet. Gonna be another cooker today.

EDIT: 96° and it's not even Noon!