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~Fuck, this was a miserable day. I wrote nothing except depressing missives, of which this is one. At least I cleaned the litter boxes and put some gas in the trucklette for our drive to the vet. Gonna lay down in a few for a few hours sleep. And I think I've abandoned the Matriarchal Calendar. I just don't feel like posting it any more...

...ah yes, the countdown to my birthday has begun, in all its hideous glory...

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~I lay down at 2ish and my alarm woke me at 6. And I was sick. Achy, exhausted and with a hint of 'the spins'. I have a horror of the spins since my last attack, which had me on the toilet, feeling 'sea sick', shitting and puking simultaneously. So I had to go back to sleep. I still feel a bit like crap now, but only wrung out, not 'sick' anymore.

I woke Le-Le up just before I made my coffee. The vet is open until 11pm, so we'll drag his big furry Ginger butt down there in an hour or so. *sigh*

The stress I have not been talking about is that the Service Brakes lights have been coming on again. The brakes seem fine, solid and no noise, so it's probably just the oversensitive sensors, but it fucks with my head. I went out around half midnight to the local car-wash to flush the brake-dust out of the wheels. I've also topped off the brake fluid, but I think the on-board comp just don't like the heat.

Stay tuned...

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~Okay, Le-Le's feeling like shit, too. I'll push myself, but she's got MS, so I won't push her. We'll rest up today and take a run at the vet first thing, which would be 7am.

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~I just Tweeted, “I know I'm depressed when I cannot read Rilke... “ I found the complete Duino Elegies on line and I was unable to focus upon them. *sigh*

This last month burned me out for a number of reasons, most of which I've gone here over several times. And no, getting rid of the cats would not help. If anything it would spin both of us into a depression death spiral. I'm fairly certain it would actually kill Le-Le within a few months if she ever consented to such a course of action...

...anyway, we're taking another shot at the vet this am. Details to follow.