The Divine Mr. M

~A year ago Sept I had six teeth extracted, all molars. Left me with one upper molar to chew with. I need a partial set of dentures to allow me to chew properly, but Medical does not cover partials and I was never able to raise even close to the $1000 needed to get one.

Early this morning the moment I've been dreading arrived. The tooth underneath that single upper molar....well, it's a cap, so I guess the roots cracked. Hurts like a mother fucker and no amount of pain killers are helping. /sigh

Now I'm waiting to call the dental office when they open and see if I still have some kind of coverage to get it extracted. If I do, I'll go as soon as I can. And then have no idea how I'm going to chew my food.

If not, I have no idea what the fuck I'll do...I'm in a lot of fucking pain...I hate my life.

~On Tuesday, for the first time in ten years, I saw a dentist. There were no real surprises. I have rotting teeth and they have to come out. Six of them. I had thought five, but whatever. Close enough for gubmint work.

Next Tuesday four on them are being extracted in one go. The Nightmare Molar all the way on the back bottom left should have gone years ago. I'm fairly certain it has been making me sick. They other three are just broken wrecks.

But after that I will have only a single upper molar, one on my right side, left to effectively chew with. And now I'm going to have to cyber beg [with a forthcoming Go Fund Me account] to raise $900 to pay for a dental appliance that will allow me to eat like a relatively normal human. [MediCal only covers full dentures, not partials]

I will confess that I am in mortal dread of these extractions. I'm paying $75 out of pocket for the nitrous. [MediCal only covers local anesthetic] I initially said no, but Le-Le insisted and I didn't fight her very hard. And I'm deeply depressed about having to once again publicly beg for such a basic human need as the ability to chew my food.

I'm keeping up a good face for the most part, but I have been crying at the drop of a hat. I feel pathetic and wish I could just die...but as I've said before, I'm trapped by my Will to Live.