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Jan. 11th, 2022 04:45 pm
nebris: (A Manga Thang)
~I’ve been working on a sci-fi novel for about two years or so. I think I’m up to around ten thousand words, roughly. They’re all in different files and DW posts. Mostly notes and ‘backstory’, tho I do have the first half dozens pages pretty much nailed down.

And I know exactly where this baby is going…right through to at least a pair of sequels. My great strength and greatest flaw is that everything – and I mean everything – I write is on a Grand Scale.

On the Liber I have done near fuck all. My Faith was shredded during 2020. It’s not gone, but as I said elsewhere, it is rather threadbare.

I have no real idea of how to restore my Faith and how to move forward on my Path. I have thought of just publishing the Liber as it stands, 90% complete, more or less. But that does not…’inspire’. So, it shall sit a while longer.

And I just take care of mundane tasks day by day with the good ol’ ‘one foot in front of the other’ and my own old standby, Maintain Positive Forward Motion’. Those worked quite well in situations far less stable and comfy as my present state.

…and so it is.
nebris: (The Temple 2)
~There are days like this, where I'm tired and don't feel so good, when my resolve falters and I see how futile most of what we do and say really is. Everyone is in their own little bubble and clings to it desperately. Veganism. Libertarianism. BlackLivesMatter. The Tea Party. Light Working. Donald Trump. Hillary Clinton. Even Bernie Sanders. I support him, but he's really just a band-aid in regards to what actually faces us....

I have been consciously on this Path for two decades now and I can't seem to get anywhere. Most days I'm a True Believer – I really DO believe in what E has told me and in the promise of The Sisterhood – but some days I think I'm just a deluded old fool.

I'll probably feel better after I get some more sleep. Sleep is The Great Cure....and my reality at the moment is I feel like an utter failure.

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