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Jan. 11th, 2022 04:45 pm
nebris: (A Manga Thang)
~I’ve been working on a sci-fi novel for about two years or so. I think I’m up to around ten thousand words, roughly. They’re all in different files and DW posts. Mostly notes and ‘backstory’, tho I do have the first half dozens pages pretty much nailed down.

And I know exactly where this baby is going…right through to at least a pair of sequels. My great strength and greatest flaw is that everything – and I mean everything – I write is on a Grand Scale.

On the Liber I have done near fuck all. My Faith was shredded during 2020. It’s not gone, but as I said elsewhere, it is rather threadbare.

I have no real idea of how to restore my Faith and how to move forward on my Path. I have thought of just publishing the Liber as it stands, 90% complete, more or less. But that does not…’inspire’. So, it shall sit a while longer.

And I just take care of mundane tasks day by day with the good ol’ ‘one foot in front of the other’ and my own old standby, Maintain Positive Forward Motion’. Those worked quite well in situations far less stable and comfy as my present state.

…and so it is.

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Feb. 9th, 2016 05:31 am
nebris: (A Dark Boy)
~I just finished the hand written part of something last night. Today, the feeling of emptiness and loss that comes with that gaped open and all my depression, grief and regret flooded into that space. At least I've been writing enough to remember that is what happens when I write. But it was brutal nonetheless. I was sitting on the crappier and I just started crying. *sigh*

I still have to type in and edit the last bit, but I cannot seem to be able to face it. Maybe after I finish this thing. Remembering this part of the process in the moment helped a bit, but it kicks the shit out of me because the things that flood in are either as yet unresolved or simply unresolvable.

This is certainly a factor in my inability to finish my 'holy book' so far. The crash from that one feels like it could kill me.....

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Oct. 9th, 2014 05:16 pm
nebris: (A Manga Thang)
~I've been sleeping a lot the past day and a half. I'm probably [small 'd'] depressed...and a bit disoriented for reasons I'm going to get into.

I've been thinking about Death a lot. Not suicide, but Death itself and that of some of those close to me...possibly. [again, no details...more from lack of Energy and Focus than secrecy]

My Pen To Paper Writing has suffered, though The Novel is still alive and talking to me.

And that is all I have for now....


PS This is probably my Writer's Blues.

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