Today is 24th Sestia, 12AS...a Bastday

"Bastday is The Fourth Day. Bast is the ancient Egyptian Goddess of Cats and those creatures are much beloved by The Sisterhood. She is chosen because cats are very fastidious thereby symbolizing 'the finishing up of business' and also notoriously nocturnal and therefore will guide Sisters as they play with Substances and Sex though the night."

"On the Weekend, the Fourth Day is half and half; morning and early afternoon for finishing up the Work Week and the late afternoon and evening for playing and partying."

Addendum D [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]

Random

~We finally got to the litter boxes. I was gonna do them early in the week, but all the Lawfare blocked that. They were nasty, but now they're done.

While I was dumping one out in the garbage bin, I saw Momma Cat, Squirt's sister. Hadn't seen her in a while. Haven't seen any strays in a while. The park manager did a big trapping at the start of Spring and probably most of those we were feeding are dead now, many of them Momma's babies.

I put some food and water out for Momma. Then I started crying. We're likely moving a goodly ways away and I feel like we're abandoning 'family' and we just can't take her in. I really fucking hate this....

Random [redux]

~Objectively, I'm okay. We have enough cash to do the rent and move thing. We have some good prospects on rentals. [Thanks, T] And we have solid help in doing the move itself.

Subjectively, I'm scared. We do not yet actually have a place to move to and that uncertainty is gnawing at my guts. Prolly my Kids being scared more than me.

I sat here crying for a while with Athena on my lap. That helped a bit. And it left me pretty raw. The fear came in with that rawness. The anger had been holding it at bay. Guess I just have to sit with it for now.

I need to sleep, but I'm afraid to lay down....

Sick Of My Own Whining

~Neither one of us feels all that well today...and the clock is ticking.